Words from the heart

Its been over a month I did not update my blog. So much things happened. And all I can say, its gives a meaningful in my life. A step forward to my journey and a 'weapons' in my battle to the next coming year. Thank you to all family and friends to make things happened. Especially to God who gives me a good health and full insight of life expectation and a new hope to the new calendar of life. Here I am again to wish you all Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

Lets not forget for the 'gifts' that we are going to receive in this season. Its not just a jolliness, foods, gifts or laughter but the one and only..its all about Him.

Thanks and Regards,

Truly me..

Wordless Wednesday (Week 3, Nov)

Huhuu... the Next Day I'll be..

Weekend Book Fairs

The world’s largest floating book fair of MV Doulos visited Sabah in year 2009 (I think..). MV Doulos have been around the globes for 16 times in 32 years. There is hundred selection of books on science, religious, cookery, hobbies, sports, dictionary, children stories, CD’s and much more. I love the floating book fair and heard that it will be a last visit to Sabah due to the condition of the cruise. Sigh… and I do hope MV Doulos come again. But last weekend during the mass, the MC has announced that there is new cruise coming to town on 18 November to 11 December!!.. yeah and now the cruise is MV Logos Hope (wow.. looks like my hope comes to reality..).

MV Logos Hope was designed to replace MV Doulos which was sold to BizNaz Resources International. They looking for volunteer to be a crewmembers and this is good news to the youngster out there. Learn and get experience in discipleship, cultural exchange and working in an international environment. So boys and girls take this opportunity to learn and gain new experiences in your school break. As for us this is time for togetherness... family with children and loved one...let us cruise with the books..lol (what??..oh..yes..I'm book worm..lol). And that is a fact..

As for me, this is my weekend list. Sigh.. I’m talking about weekend already..lol..

Weekend with 'baby'...

Happy weekend friend...

I'm sure all of you will have an interesting weekend. As for me? hehehee..I got my new 'baby'.. never had it before actually..lol.. yeah!! I planned to 'spend' my time to get 'to know her'. I'll blog about it later... hehehe..

Oh..baby..baby..baby..oh..baby..baby.. be my baby..
I know you like me.. but do I like you?
you are not my first love..but can you be one.. baby..baby..baby.. lol..

See my face?? hehhee...

Wordless Wednesday (Week 2, Nov 11)

My Thought For You

First day of the week..yes it is Monday. I used to called it Monday blues without truly understand what 'blues' was about. Commonly blues means melancholy and sadness..hey wait a minute...stop there!!. I do feel stressed on Monday and the rest of the weekday too. But I'm not sad and melancholy.. so I should not called it Monday Blues right??..lol. I prefer to fill my mind with positive and good thinking and for that I present you my big yellow smile..

And friend.. thank you for not hating me. I know.. I'm very busy lately almost 'invisible' from friendship cycle..but you still choose me to be your friend.. :)

Ahahahaa.. a words to ponder...

That's all for now friend..my little thoughts for you this week... again I'm going to rolling deep into my routine.... and dreams too...fly high...

Dreaming Weekend

I'm dreaming a reality... to come ...

I have a dream a song to sing

To help me cope with anything

If you see the wonder of a fairy tale

You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels

Something good in everything I see

I believe in angels

When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream

I have a dream

I have a dream A fantasy

To help me through Reality

And my destination Makes it worth the while

Pushing through the darkness

Still another mile

I believe in angels

Something good in everything I see

I believe in angels

When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream

I have a dream

I'll cross the stream

(ABBA - I Have a Dream)

Wordless Wednesday (Week 3, Oct)

Saturday with kids

Happy Saturday all. I normally wake up at 10.00am on Saturday except today as I've made promise to my nephews to have a breakfast at Mc Donalds. Well..there's go my Saturday's..lol

Feel so happy after having his breakfast and its play time...

Having an ice cream at vedablu...

a lunch here...

Its toys time.... looking and picking..

Both look so serious... well..dont worry, auntie paid for it hahhaa...lol

Last place for 'kids time' ... games and entertainment corner

After spending a half days with them...here I'm..reading and writing up my thesis. Going to take a short nap before continue. Feel so tired but what a happy feeling if we're willing to share a days with others and make others life brighter than yesterday..well, I'm just saying..hehhee

Have a great weekend all...

Gloomy Friday...

It’s a beautiful sunny Friday but somehow I feel so gloomy inside. Been overly busy this past few weeks and that’s why I’m not able to update my blogs. Routine works especially by month end and with all the ISO stuff’s flooded my mind, checking and signing of papers and there are even time my right arm aching due to over use and my eyes are burning as I focus too much on screen. I might have to defocus and exercise my eyes to every now and then. My brains feel so exhausted due to too much thinking in finishing my thesis but somehow it shuttered when comes to papers..sigh!!

But I feel a bit excited as weekend is coming even though I know I’ll be busy with church thingy. But first of all, I’m going to spend Saturday morning with my nephew as I’ve promised to him to have a meal at MCD otherwise he will keep complaining and buzzing around me hehehee…. then a time for me to catch up with the thesis.

How I wish…. I’m in a place with a green, serene with a cold breeze touch me in a morning, a sweet sound of birds with aromatic of woods kiss me in a afternoon and a beautiful sunset smile me at evening...

Happy Friday and enjoy your weekend guys…

Wordless Wednesday (Week 2, Oct)

Wordless Wednesday (Week 1, Oct)

When Nature Talks..

Sometimes it's good to talk with the nature...

When we appreciate life, the beautiful of the nature spokes to us...

Listen to them.... feel it with your heart... touch it with your eyes...

And surrendered to the beauty of the Creator...

Hope for Today

To all my friends...

Let the dreams come with the hope, strengthen by faith and move by loves.

Love sincerely,

Wordless Wednesday...

God Bless you...

The sweetness in silence..

Sometimes I look around me, and I can see all of the sadness and the suffering. Sometimes, I think that this is what true loveliness is; the pain encased within each person's self. But then I wonder if this only a delusion that clings to my own self-loathing because of the feeling of afraid for what would be happens.

Sometimes, the hope and determination become so strong within me that I can feel myself lifted up and it's as if I'm taking a deep, sweet breath of air.

Sometimes, my logic tells me that this despair is not real. I am not suffering with depression, or anxiety. No, this is nothing but a phase. Sometimes, I felt that it is just a part of me, and nothing can cure it, and these are the most hopeless days of all.

Sometimes the words don't come out right. They form in my thoughts, pure and lovely, but somewhere during the path from my mind to the paper they turn into sludge and stutter across the page, uncertain.

But always the time He stood beside me
Tell me to be brave as I’m not walk alone across the path
The moment that I think I’m lost He found me
The moment I think I’m in dark He give me light to cross the path
The moment I think I’m overwhelmed He willing to carry the burden
The moment I feel nobody care He always care-guide me
The moment I feel alone He sit right with me and listen to my jumbles words
And often the moment I feel sad and hopeless He right there smiling and show me how beautiful the world He created for

And I’m surrender to the sweetness of His acts.. in silence.. I found it.

Everybody should have his personal sounds to listen for - sounds that will make him exhilarated and alive or quite and calm.... One of the greatest sounds of them all - and to me it is a sound - is utter, complete silence. ~Andre Kostelanetz~

Going Where The Wind Blows

Friday is here...Happy holiday to all. Took a week of leave from works and daily routine and I will go to where the wind blow.. lol




Someone said life is for the taking
Here I am with my hand out waiting for a ride
I've been living on my great expectations
What good is it when I'm stranded here
And the world just passes by

Where are the signs to help me get out of this place
If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows

Here I sit halfway to somewhere
Thinking about what's in front of me and
what I left behind
On my own, supposed to be so easy
Is this what I've been after
Or have I lost my mind

Maybe this is my chance coming to take me away
If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows

Here I am walking naked through the world
Taking up space, society's child
Make room for me, make room for me,
make room for me
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool

Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows
Going where the wind blows

Now It's Make Sense..

Welcoming myself to August..few more months to Christmas.. :)

People say, life is full of challenges, colours, surprises, shapes and many more..yes it is true. There is time I felt nothing and do sometimes feel full. As I acknowledge and accept it, I realized everything comes in circle (some believes it is karma..). Where is sad become joy, dark to light, zero to hero, nothing to something...

Life comes in many shapes
You think you know what you got
Until it changes

And life will take you high and low
You gotta learn how to walk
And then which way to go

Every choice you make
When you're lost
Every step you take
Has it's cause

After you clear your eyes
You'll see the light
Somewhere in the darkness
After the rain has gone
You'll feel the sun come
And though it seems your sorrow never ends
Someday it's gonna make sense

Tears you shed are all the same
When you laughed 'till you cried
Or broken down in pain

All the hours you have spent in the past
Worrying about
A thing that didn't last

Everything you saw
Played a part
In everything you are
In your heart

Someday you're gonna find the answers
To all the things you've become and all they've done
At your expense
Someday it's gonna make sense

After the rain has gone
You'll feel the sun comes
And though it seems your sorrow never ends

All that nonsense makes sense. Question have answered. Trouble makes tunes. Dead end makes way. Crying makes music. Everything are in placed.

Enjoy it...!!!

Its My Life..

Almost a month did not update my blog..sigh..

Tense is around me at this moment. Sometimes I can’t think anything but sleep and have a good sip of coffee. Everyday waiting for weekend to come by hoping it will be a relaxing weekend. I do enjoy the weekend but I was too tired to enjoy it. All I want is a good foods and body pampering. Juggling with work, study and social/church activities make me want to give up..lol. Luckily I’m not a type of person that gives up too early. Don’t blame me for become so ambitious..hehehe.

People always asked me why I make my life so difficult and not enjoying more as how others woman do. I understand their perspective. For them, that ought to be enough, especially for a woman. A woman should not aim too high otherwise she might end up on the shelves. However, I beg to differ. Times have changed, and I ought to think more realistically. A challenge for woman at these eras is different. The demands for multi-skilled individual are increasing. More than ever before, basic certs cannot take you anywhere and we have to continue building up to keep up with times and stay relevant. Tough still, we still have to continue learning throughout our working life in order to keep up with the increasing demands of our professions. Its forced us to upgrades skills and knowledge to move forward.

Friends often ask me how I juggle the stress of studying with the demands of being a full-time employee. I don’t have an answer because sometimes I totally can’t use my own personal organizer!! And that’s delaying my progress. At this point some of the ‘birds’ out there will start singing and laughing looking at me. Who care!! I live and drive my own life. I always whispered to myself ‘there is always a way to overcome it’. Yeah.. if God allowed U-Turn why Can’t I? LOL… Yet, some of my friends often find it hard to accept my incredibly hectic routine. To them, I have no life! Some of them worried. But, unfortunately this is something that many in my generation have to live with for careers to progress.

Life must go on..handle it with faith..

Weekend with Children

Nothing is more fun than spend the weekend with children or our loved ones. Sunday Masses is important to me not just because of the obligation for the masses but the responsibility towards the children. Involving in the Children Liturgy taught me a lot of children behaviours. I feel so grateful took this responsibility as it was my self-reflection to what extent I can do. These children are mirrored for tomorrow. Thanks to those whose willing to spend their time for the children to teach and firmed their faith to face the world of tomorrow.

Last Sunday, my parish has conducted a drawing and colouring contest for the children. I’m not involved in that contest but feel so happy watching them. Something echoes in my heart while looking down on them ‘this is children for tomorrow, a light that walk to the path of future’.

As I said, I spent my weekend with children, my nephew celebrating his 6th years born day. He was so happy surrounding by his aunties and uncle. My sister baked a birthday cake for him..lol.

(a simple and plain birthday cake..hand made)

By the way, I feel blessed surrounding by the kids even tough waves of life never stopped reached my life.

Secrets of Life

While browsing and read through some of my old emails yesterday, I found one email that really bruise my mind. The author dedicated this quotes to all of his retired friends. But somehow, the words are really touched me and I wanted to share it with you. Maybe some of you have read it. The titles of the quotes are ‘The Secrets of life’.

The secrets of Life in 6 words:

• Before middle age – Do not fear

• After middle age – Do not regret


Enjoy your life while you can

• Do not wait till you cannot even walk just to be sorry and to regret

• As long as it is physically possible, visit places you wish to visit

Get out of the stock market!!

• When the share prices are up, your blood pressure goes up too, you want to buy but you cannot get

• When the share prices are down, you panic and want to sell, but no one wish to buy

• You can’t make all the money, why not let the young ones have a chance!

When there is an opportunity, get together with old classmates, old colleagues & old friends. The gathering is not just about eating, the concern is there is not much time left!

Money kept in the banks may not be really yours. When it is time to spend, just spend. You should treat yourself well as you’re getting old!



There are two kinds of food:

1. Things which are good for health – eat often, eat more but that is not everything.

2. Things which are not good for health – eat a little. Eat once a while but do not abstain from them totally.

Whatever you feel like eating, just eat! It is most important to be happy!

Food that you do not feel like eating or do not like, you still need to eat a little once a while, just to balance your nutrition intake!

Treat the sickness with optimism. Whether you are poor, rich, powerful or powerless, everyone will have to go through the process of birth, aging, sickness and death, there is no exception, that’s life!

Do not be afraid or worried when you are sick. Settle all the afraid or worried when you are sick. Settle all the outstanding issues before hand and when you are well, including your funeral arrangements, you will be able to leave this world anytime, without regret!

Let the doctors handle your body, let GOD/NATURE handle your life, but be in charge of your own moods!

If worries can cure your sickness, then go ahead and worry!

If worries can prolong your life, then go ahead and worry!

If worries can exchange for happiness, then go ahead and worry!

Our kids will have their own fortune. Things concerning children and grandchildren, we can listen with eyes, just do not open your mouths or make any comments!

The Principles are:

Do not say anything that are fruitless. Do not do anything that is beyond your ability to achieve. If you are in a reactive situation, make your judgement based on the circumstances. If your children and grandchildren are independent, it is your good fortune!

Look After Four Old Treasures

1. The old body – pay more attention to information about health care, you can only rely on yourself to take care of your own health!

2. The retirement funds – money that you have earned, it is best to keep them yourself

3. The old companion – treasure every moment with your other half, one of you will leave first!

4. The old friends – seize every opportunities to meet up with your friends, such opportunities will be rare as time goes by

Do not panic when the lights go off. You can still see lot of stars in the sky with no boundary. There are always ups and downs in life. Since you do not jump for joy when the water vapour rises, why should you feel sad when it rains!

Three things You Must do Everyday

The first thing: Laugh

The second thing: Smile

The third thing: Laugh loudly and to your heart’s content

A wonderful life will always find wonderful reasons. The one who can laugh last, will be the one with the sweetest laugh!

Be determined in doing an appropriate amount of exercises everyday. Have sufficient sleep, maintain a peaceful and cheerful state of mind.

• Instead of scolding people with red faces and swelling blood vessels on the necks

• Why not just adopt more gracious approaches

• It will be less unruly

Laugh a little, it will be like the ocean and the sky with no boundary. There are always ups and downs in life. Since you do not jump for joy when the water vapour rises, why should you feel sad when it rains!

Looking back at my life, unrealized I’ve set a boundaries just to make me feel safe and happy…sigh! Getting older make me realized what is important to live life with no regret.

Here The Weekend

Since these few months I'm longing for holidays. No public holidays for this month and I planned to take a holidays..just a short escape from this hectic life but no clue where to go..lol. Luckily weekend is here and I will make use of it. I dont have any planned for weekend gateway this month and I'm trying to make myself loaded with nice things :). Those negatives energies and emotional interference need to put on rest.

I'm looking forward for this coming weekend. I'm going to hunt the ngiu chap (beef stew) at my favorite place hehehe. I promised to myself that starting next week I will be stick with my diet to get rid the calories in my body. I cant stop eating and snacking these few days. I'm still in my ideal weight but I know those calories would accumulate and turned to fat in a future. However, keeping healthy and enough energies is important plus with exercise... :(. I hate exercising..any alternatives way? hehee...

Those pictures a where my calories come..hahaha. Menus for this five days..lol

Varieties of foods drives me crazy. Locals and westerns restaurants are mushrooming and I cant keep my desire to have a 'food test'!!.

Oh ya...Popular Bookstore and Times having a books fair discount up to 30%. Looking forward to visit there too..lol.

By the way have a blessed weekeend guys...enjoy it. Not everyday we have weekend hehehe...