Wednesday, July 8, 2009

On and Off...

A good friend of mine called me today. She’s engaged and in a relationship problems. I know about her problems as I always chat with her parents. I feel pity to her.. or should I?

They break up with anger, tears and end it up. Then, two weeks later, they've made up, talked it out, and together again. Another week later it happens again. Break up, make up, break up, make up, over and over again. After a while, it starts to get routine, and it’s become used to the constant tumultuous relationship. I do remembered they’ve throw the ring twice and make it up again

I wondered why she doesn't just end her chaotic relationship once and for all. Especially when she personally realized that this is an on-going pattern that may never come to a close. As a friend, I prefer her to take a long ‘holiday’ from these kind of stuff coz I really know how suck the impact to her life. The family had advised her too. Maybe these what we caked cinta karas… heheheeee..

Sometimes it’s hard to figure out which position is worse. Is it better constantly watching your friend in this emotional roller coaster or is it better to be one who is somehow stuck, and cannot make the final decision to the end the relationship. I know most of us agree that breakups suck. The most unforgiving part of a breakup is that moment when you start to second guess yourself.

There is never any way of knowing our fate with the one we love or what lies ahead of us, and despite everything, it's always hard to let someone go. To me the only thing we can really do is jump in head-first, listen to our instincts, and most importantly follow our heart.

I don’t know why I write these post.. emmm… no idea maybe.. hehhehee…

Thursday, July 2, 2009

How Can I Keep From Singing

When I was a child.. I keep sing this song with my friends. Listening to these song again make me realized how 'rich' we are... lol..



My life goes on in endless song
Above earths lamentations,
I hear the real, though far-off hymn
That hails a new creation.

Through all the tumult and the strife
I hear its music ringing,
It sounds an echo in my soul.
How can I keep from singing?

While though the tempest loudly roars,
I hear the truth, it liveth.
And though the darkness round me close,
Songs in the night it giveth.

No storm can shake my inmost calm,
While to that rock Im clinging.
Since love is lord of heaven and earth
How can I keep from singing?

When tyrants tremble in their fear
And hear their death knell ringing,
When friends rejoice both far and near
How can I keep from singing?

In prison cell and dungeon vile
Our thoughts to them are winging,
When friends by shame are undefiled
How can I keep from singing?

Monday, June 15, 2009

If I Forget

I love this songs.. sometimes hard to express by words..




You're a million miles away,
Your voice, it speaks so painfully,
The path is never easy,
YOU gotta do what you've gotta do, I know,
In life we have to compromise,
The chaos of our choices,
And through every endevour,
I think of us forever,
So remember.

If I forget to say I love you,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
If I forget to say I miss you,
It doesnt mean that I,
It doesnt mean that I dont.

So much pressure HAUNTS YOU NOW,
Tell me we can climb this too,
AND Don't give up ON what we have,
Cos i dont wanna live my life,
Without you,
Without you.

If I forget to say I love you,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
If I forget to say I miss you,
It doesnt mean that I,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
It doesnt mean that I dont.

If I forget to say I love you,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
If I forget to say I miss you,
It doesnt mean that I,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
It doesnt mean that I dont,
It doesnt mean that I dont


Worth of meaning...



Saturday, June 6, 2009

Where Have I Been...?

Took leave from work..again..my bos surely doesnt like this.. hehehhee.... but he cannot do anything as I've quite a number of leave from previous year. And this what I'm doing... huhuu.. make me more stressed and exhausted




Searched for tips.. scoring.. analyze.. huhuuu...this is the prize I've to pay on 'last minute' revision.. hoping for some miracle...

Making the most of it... evaluate..appraised ... what is this?


At last... almost giving up... but wont surrender till it end... that is the spirit but where's the hope? huhuuuu...

This is the difficulties I faced for this past few years.. balance of work, study and life.. my work demand 70% of my time... I've a spirit of gold but never get enough.. which part that I failed?

Someone give me a tips on this... One thing I wonder about myself is.. I keep holding the 'goal' that I make 10 years ago... hehehhee... although this is a toughest way to live with....

But.. I praise Lord coz I've found somebody who really can 'push' me into my dreams again.. the dreams which leave behind for quite sometime.. thanks to him.. together pursuing the dreams.. never too late to ammend something.. hehehehehe... wish me luck for the 'battle' again...

Made me a meal and threw it on upon Sunday
I've gotta a lot of things to learn
Said I would and I'll be leaving one day
Before my hearts start to burn

So whats the matter with you
Sing me something new..dont you know?
The cold and wind and rain dont know
They only seem to come and go away

Times a hard when the things have got no meaning
I've found the key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door

Stand by me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be

If you're leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart can never be your home

Somehow.. somewhere..I've touched by these lyrics.. really represent how I feel now..


Sunday, May 24, 2009

You Will Be There For Me..

When I think back on this time
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad cause I was blessed
To get to have you in my life

When I think back on these day
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams I always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be

Well, you showed me how it feels
To have the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You wre right thre for me

Cause I always saw in you my life, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
Always

There you'll be


"God, life seems so bleak and useless right now. No energy, no ambition to do anything feeling down and make everyone feels too around me. Make me feel your presence in each my prayer. Life is good, I am good and You are good. Grant me hope. My loved ones love me. Let me regain to know vitality and purpose, happiness and love. Until then, give me the strength and hope to survive this day. Help me to smile and laugh, even if just for a moment. Be my strength and salvation. Restore me and make me whole. Fill me with the Words an Spirit that I might be recreated anew. I praise and thank you. Amen"

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Life That We Want..

In this every changing time, it is often the goal of most to change their lives. There is nothing wrong with wanting to change our life for the better but it is wrong TO CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE LIFE JUST TO SHAPE YOUR OWN LIFE. Am I correct guys?

This desire that helps us to get what we want. With this desire people often miss out on being happy in the moment they are in. They sit there waiting to get to the point in their life when they can be happy. They are missing out on the true happiness taht is life. The journey needs to be just as happy as the end of destination. They are trying hard to reach to the point they want to. Even though, this will gives negatives effects to other people lives or in other words, to let their loved ones in miserable moments.

Dont RUSH.. take one step at a time. Give me breath.. do not change too quick.. look for the small things that make you smile as you go through your days and treasure it. There are many little things that we cross everyday can make us happy. Just because you are on journey, it does not mean that you will not encounter things on the way that will make you happy as well. Whenever you fall... get up and raised!! Make a little step again..do not give up and DONT change to other lane.. you will never discouver the beauties and the sorrow of the previous lane you took . You might lose or gain something. The important things you to know is.. I'm always there to be with you..

Think and discover the most important things in your life. This will help you to focus yourself on the positives level. You can start out small. And dont forget to smile through out your day. No matter what is going on keep a smile on your face. A smile can do wonders when it comes to keeping you happy during your days and other people days too.

To the person I concern very much..

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Exhausted...Again..

This is the price I've to pay after my holidays...huhuuuuhuuuu....

Not enough energy...alwyas feel tired..no mood for everything...gosh..!!

And time pass so slow...weekend I need you...


Thursday, May 14, 2009

My 'Super Hot Summer' Holiday


Wow...almost one week I took leave from my routine works and life. I'm not going far.. just enough to make a 'distance' from my works and routines activities at KK. I can say it as vacation and study leave too...hehehee.. honestly I cant concentrates at my studies coz I took this leave as a 'compensation' to my hard work sine last year and took it for granted..hehhehe. Since I took a short holiday, I'm not going far but still 'over the sea' kekekeeeee. But this coming August, yes...for sure I'll be going to Medan for spiritual vacation..cant wait for that. Anyway, one thing is bothering me is..swine flu..its getting worst now...in fact now Thailand was affected too. Its very closed to Malaysia.

Well, guys what do y0u think..should I continue with my plans? anyway, I already prepared all the cost for it..emm...last year, I've intentation to go to Jerusalem but war at Gaza forced me to changed the plans..and now swine flu?....

My 'super hot summer' holiday..if you guys know what I mean hehehee... yes..it is very hot outside..and I know I'm getting very tan now... sun block lotion also useless.. your guys can see the pic's above... very hot... but anyway, I enjoyed it especially when you spend the time with your love ones right? :)

Still few days leave to utilizes..hope this holiday will give me new mood and ideas to work again.. hope so...

HAVE A NICE DAY