Saturday, December 13, 2008

12 Days Before Christmas..Where Is The Spirit?

Where is my Christmas spirit? It’s seems to have run away. I don’t feel much like celebrating. I have no present wrapped and not even do the shopping.. not like before I’m so excited if December come. What happened to me? And it’s so close to Christmas day (it is 12 days to Christmas…huh?..) No light deco, no Christmas music, no warmness of Christmas at my office and..NOT even at home? Where my spirits of Christmas go? Is someone or anybody trying to take Christ from me?

How to get into Christmas spirit again? Is it too late now? Christmas is supposed to be a time of peace, love and goodwill to all. But with all the stress and bad emotion in this season, I end up feeling more like Mr. Grinch who wants to steal the Christmas mood from everyone.  My nephew, niece, sisters, brother and mum must be upset of me because every year I’m the one who always started the ‘Christmas mood’. I’m so sorry.. feel too bad and pity of myself.  Every year I yearn for the Christmas feeling that we are family used to have - the one that is brought to mind by silver bells, Christmas tree, present wrapped with colorful paper, exchange gifts, greeting cards, simple wine and of course a Christmas dinner..

Well, maybe I should go out to the malls, participate with the commotion out there. Try to enjoy with the crowd and make myself busy with gifts. What else? I don’t know. Or maybe watch some movies relate to Christmas feeling.. right? Oh God, guide me again to the meaning of the Christmas. It’s seems faded away… uncontrollable. I may never find all the answers and I may never understand why. But I know that I still have to try.

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  1. Pray. Ask for Jesus present in ur heart.

    Take care :)

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  2. -_-"" ouch..im not good in words.. yet.. -_-"" hey~ who cares bout xmas..? jk.. hmm.. yup u should go out and maybe.. forget bout all the sorrow thingy and irritating things so u'll hav better preparation for ur xmas celebration. hope u doing good.. hang wif ur silliest friends then it might help.. :) xoxox

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  3. ah... macam biasa saja ni 12 days before Xmas... I wish I can see those one and only bright star at the East.... mana tu?

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  4. sia cuma risau... the true meaning of Christmas..is not there anymore..
    ...

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  5. I have no mood for christmas too because just got a car accident.

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  6. huhu.. i have no idea.. :( (Leads)

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  7. the spirit carries on..what a beautiful song..thank you for sharing..
    are we goin to be happy on christmas? it's all in our mind. so set your mind to be in a happy mood, then all will turn out good.

    Happy Christmas! :)

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  8. It'll come to you, don worry. Maybe what u need is a pushover, a short drive to the nearest mall? Hehehe. Now it's 9 days to Christmas dear! Remember, Christmas isnt just about celebration and christmas trees and about present, it's about the ONE who's birthday we are celebrating. Merry Christmas!

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  9. I have no mood for any event or exhibition... because a lot of work to be given for promotion, flyer and etc..

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