Wednesday, July 29, 2009

All about them..

Well.. what I mean is.. I really miss them a lot. My nephews and niece... ^_^ xoxoxox0

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Crossroads Of Life

How often we must bear the challenges of life
The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow
The constant ups and downs of daily strife
And always the question remains .... why?

Life is not an easy road for most
It twists and turns with many forks in the road,
Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice

Do we turn to the right ... or the left?
Do we take the high road ... or the low road?
Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?

Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction

And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming

While standing at a crossroads in life
The urge is to take the most comfortable path
The road with least resistance
The shortest or most traveled route

And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences

Do we yet again follow the known?
Or does our destiny lie in another direction?

The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too real
It manifests itself in many ways
And tends to cloud the issues that might otherwise be clear

It is in these times of confusion
That we must seek peace and solitude

Time to contemplate on our life
Our experiences and our choices past
Time to look back, and reflect on what we have learned
Without fear or confusion

For only each of us knows our own personal thoughts
Our unique past and personal history
The experiences that brought us to the crossroads we now face.

We can always learn a small degree from others experiences
And yet ... no one person can walk in our shoes
Others know not, the trials and tribulations faced in private

For each is individual is unique and personal

And that is why ... while standing at a crossroads
Only we can formulate the decision for ourselves
The true direction that lies within
The choices we must deliberate on with clarity and wisdom

For it is only through personal reflection
That we can now choose our destiny
Our next adventure
And the future we will embrace

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

A Piece Of Me

Four o'clock in the morning
Afraid to open my eyes
Another day of grief,
A day of fear.
All alone I feel.
I try to justify all the pain,
All of this guilt before my eyes.
Another day of confusion,
A day of wondering.
Is it ever just going to go away?
All this pain that I feel,
And all this anger, is it going to stay?

Ten o'clock in the evening,
Afraid of the nightmares.
Again my breathing stops.
All I can do is stare into the night.
What is it that causes this feeling?
Another night of crying,
A night of hiding,
Alone once again.
My heart feels empty,
And I can't cry another tear.
Another day wasted on insecurity,
A day of wonder.
Is this ever going to end?

~Shellie Sanchez~

Monday, July 13, 2009

You and Me..

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

Thank you for being there all the time...

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

On and Off...

A good friend of mine called me today. She’s engaged and in a relationship problems. I know about her problems as I always chat with her parents. I feel pity to her.. or should I?

They break up with anger, tears and end it up. Then, two weeks later, they've made up, talked it out, and together again. Another week later it happens again. Break up, make up, break up, make up, over and over again. After a while, it starts to get routine, and it’s become used to the constant tumultuous relationship. I do remembered they’ve throw the ring twice and make it up again

I wondered why she doesn't just end her chaotic relationship once and for all. Especially when she personally realized that this is an on-going pattern that may never come to a close. As a friend, I prefer her to take a long ‘holiday’ from these kind of stuff coz I really know how suck the impact to her life. The family had advised her too. Maybe these what we caked cinta karas… heheheeee..

Sometimes it’s hard to figure out which position is worse. Is it better constantly watching your friend in this emotional roller coaster or is it better to be one who is somehow stuck, and cannot make the final decision to the end the relationship. I know most of us agree that breakups suck. The most unforgiving part of a breakup is that moment when you start to second guess yourself.

There is never any way of knowing our fate with the one we love or what lies ahead of us, and despite everything, it's always hard to let someone go. To me the only thing we can really do is jump in head-first, listen to our instincts, and most importantly follow our heart.

I don’t know why I write these post.. emmm… no idea maybe.. hehhehee…

Thursday, July 2, 2009

How Can I Keep From Singing

When I was a child.. I keep sing this song with my friends. Listening to these song again make me realized how 'rich' we are... lol..

My life goes on in endless song
Above earths lamentations,
I hear the real, though far-off hymn
That hails a new creation.

Through all the tumult and the strife
I hear its music ringing,
It sounds an echo in my soul.
How can I keep from singing?

While though the tempest loudly roars,
I hear the truth, it liveth.
And though the darkness round me close,
Songs in the night it giveth.

No storm can shake my inmost calm,
While to that rock Im clinging.
Since love is lord of heaven and earth
How can I keep from singing?

When tyrants tremble in their fear
And hear their death knell ringing,
When friends rejoice both far and near
How can I keep from singing?

In prison cell and dungeon vile
Our thoughts to them are winging,
When friends by shame are undefiled
How can I keep from singing?